...but my mind can't stop working. I dunno what's bothering me tonight but few faces kept approaching. It ticked my heart a little bit..brought me back to the past where I was struggling my life..and ends up with a hatred that i will never forgive what they did to me. Its a bad feeling of feeling bad.
I tried to forget and forgive but its not that simple. A betrayal. An accusation. All are from words that kill. It almost kill my journey when I was trying so hard to live my life. Yes, words kill. It did. But I was able to walk through it alive and kicking. And its not easy.
I'm better now, I know. Its over. Those people..it's supposed to be over.. But their voices..the faces..are coming back. It triggered one feeling that I could not describe. As much as I hate to think about it, I hate not to think about it too.
No, its not a revenge that I am thinking about. They were juz ordinary people that is not at all important to my life. Used to be important but not at all..! They are the people that I can fake my smile to and cheat my words. They are the people I could simply ignore and turn my back from. Yes, they are.
So what on earth is bothering me.? I'm clueless. Their words are playing inside my heads and ears. The faces, I dont wish to see them no more. Their remarks are the point that I will use to motivate myself. Proving them wrong is not what I'm gonna do. Will let them see it with their two eyes. Becoz the more they hate me, the more successful I am in life~
Guess thats a solution, huh..? Let them see it! Just that..??
Ok...so did I juz wasting my time thinking 'bout useless people and ends up with a short solution for it..? I guess I did. Huhuhu.
All right. I hope my eyes can stop being so strong fighting the night because I have another 4 hours left before my next wake up time. Its gonna be tough.
As tough as the issue that my brain's trying to process. Will have to pray more for His guidance.
In the meantime... Good sleep, here I come. Goodnite, world. May we have a blessed tomorrow. Xoxo